I have no idea what that means. Well, I do. It's just kinda random, isn't it? I think so. :D
So the entire reason I'm writing this is to apologize. Wow. It seems like I do that a LOT in blogging. :/ But anyways, I haven't been taking pictures. I promise to now though! I even printed it out and EVERYTHING.
So, in the mean time, go real all 711 comics in one night like I did:
Clicky the Pikture! Scarlet will love you forever! ^_^ (they're both linked so you can get there either way. Why? becasue I love you enough to ensure that you find your way to this particular batch of awesome. )
Today was my first day volunteering at the retirement community! I had SO much fun. I played Ball with the Alzheimer's wing. They were sweet. These two women kept talking about how cute I was and how fast I was and ect. ect. ect. I really enjoyed it. And I'm looking forward to going every Wednesday and Thursday. And I get to watch Ben on Fridays. :3
On another note, I still don't know what my name is. It's annoying. Like not knowing who you are. Everyone around me seems to instantly know who they are and what they want their name to be. But I also have to take into consideration that they are older than me. BUT STILL. :/
I going to go bowling with some friends this weekend. I'm excited. It'll be fun! Still haven't talked to that friend. I'm hoping the party will smooth things over a bit - but it's unlikely. Which really sucks. O'-'O
I think I'll try writing aimed post from now on. I don't know how long it'll last, or how well it'll work, but I'm going to try. It seems to work for other bloggers. Besides. Maybe it'll be fun~
Sorry it's been a while. But summer's here now! And so, here I am.
I decided it was time for a change again. And it probably won't be the last. I just hope you won't be too confused.
I'm having trouble with a hoop name again. It seems as though the people around me have theirs handed to them, and I have to grasp at straws for mine. :P For a while now it's been Widgit Fidgit. But that doesn't seem like my name. When I see it, I don't think "Oh! That's me." So yet again I have to try and figure out what I want to be called (even though we don't really use these names.) I have some ideas, but they seem to be shot down a lot. So, for now I'm going with a fall back. Mouse. I've been told many times I share cute traits with the cute furry animals. And it's either that or Ghostie, and even though I love that name, and it currently seems to suit me the most, I don't think that's my hoop name.
I just hope this one will do the trick.
So! On to the changes on my blog. ^-^ I decided it was time for something cheerier. Do you like it? I do.
Oh hey, you remember that friend from the last post? Yeah, that dude and I had a fight and now she and I have fallen out of touch. They decided to give me the "Silent Treatment." It was lame. And I still had a good friend who stood by me through it all. I appreciate her so much more now(Jordan)! And they got one of my other friends to do it too (Rebekah), but she gave up and is still a good friend. But as for my best friend? Well, I guess we'll see if the friendship can be slavaged when Rebekah and I throw her a surprise birthday party. I hope she likes it. ^_^
I'm looking into violin lessons. I'm excited! I've always loved the violin. My ancestors were violin makers in Germany. It seems right that I should learn to play. Even if mom is hesitant. :P
Tomorrow is midsummer! I had forgotten until just now. I don't know what we'll do for it, but maybe it'll be fun.
Happy belated father's day! We spent yesterday eating a H~U~G~E ice cream cake and playing Munchkin. It was fun. We're going to go out for dinner too. We would have done it yesterday, but the parentals weren't feeling well.
Max is dying. It's really sad. He's the nice gentleman who mom looks after (she works fro home instead) He gave her tickets to the symphony once. Hannah and I went. It was so much fun! I really wish I had the chance to meet him. Mom hasn't been working with him that long, so it really sucks that he's dying. He's chosen to go now, even though they could treat his symptoms. I hope he dies peacefully and has an awesome after life.
I want to start writing more. I'm not very good, but practice makes perfect! :D So maybe I'll post stuff, maybe not. In all honesty, this probably isn't going to happen. But I'll try!
That's all you can ask for, right?
Anyways, here's to all the Daddy's and Grandpa's out there!
We talked. We're better now. I made sure to fix it before bed. Remember that saying: "Don't go to bed mad, you might not wake up." I have NO IDEA who wrote that, but I wasn't about to let a boy, who may or may not be okay, ruin my relationship with my best friend, when he didn't even know he was doing so.
I bet who ever wrote that, had something similar going on. When I thought of that quote, I always thought of lovers quarrels. Never occurred to me that it worked in multiple situations. I suppose, I could consider this a learning experience. I probably will, but for now, I'm happy to consider it resolved. (Hopefully all the way. We'll see tomorrow)
Thanks go to any powers that helped me come to my senses. I couldn't have done it without you. ♥ P.S. Help her too. If she needs it. I hope it all works out, in the end. Learning experiences, Sav, Learning experiences.
Yeah, So.... I kinda died for a while there. Sorry about that! >.< But, I have successfully returned! But, I'm in a bind. I'm in a bruhaha with my best friend over a guy. And I don't even have a crush on him. So here's the deal: He's in my Seminar class. He's in Her French Class. I considered liking him, decided against it. On Monday, she tells me: "Oh hey, Can N sit with us today?" "Yeah, sure. :D" So he sat with us. And he talked a little. Not too much. That evening, I asked her what the deal was. She said she didn't know if he liked her, and that he sat with us because he has no friends in this lunch. Please note that when we went to get him, he left a table with a girl that didn't want him to leave. Obviously friends, even if they aren't good ones. On Tuesday; He sat with us again. AND DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING. At all. What so ever. It was kinda awkward. So, as usual, Gabbs and I talked all lunch and joked around. He spent the lunch staring at us. Her in particular. Made me feel weird, because I thought he was staring at me too. Then a girl at the table behind us says hi to him. He practically cusses her out. And flips her off. Okay, that's weird, right? It's not just me?
So this morning I decide I want to talk to her about him. I'm the kind of girl that's super protective of her friends. You look at one of my friends funny, and I'll slaughter you. So, of course I'm concerned. She also told me in the texts on Monday, that they texted each other all weekend. Note that, for me, this has come out of the blue. I mean, we used him to say Hi to each other through him, but that was pretty much it. I wanted to know if she liked him. Where this came from, and how I felt about him. So, I told our friends we were going to eat lunch in the Library. She says she doesn't want to ditch him. I tell her I really want to talk to her about him, so He can't be there. "Okay, well, I don't want to be mean and ditch him. Just tell me at lunch." FINE. I'll tell you in the lunch line. That's pretty much the basis of our conversation. I get to school, and talk to Rebe, one of our friends. She doesn't really know what to say, but agrees we need to talk to her. Says she might have 3rd lunch today. "Okay, but I really need to talk to her today, so..." (she wasn't at lunch)
So now for lunch. Everyday, I wait by my classroom and she walks by me to get to lunch, so we walk together. Today, I almost missed her because she was too busy talking to N to come to my side of the hallway, or even stop to get me. So I catch up, and say hello. They say Hi, and continue talking. Alright, fine. I was holding Gabbs arm. but we were coming up on a door, so I had to let go and walk a bit ahead to get through. I was basically ignored from here on in. She was so busy talking to him, that I didn't get to talk to her until we got to the lunch line, and he went to sit with his "not friends." I had talked to him occasionally, but not really developed an opinion of him. I told Gabbs everything I wanted: He cussed out that girl yesterday, and I just don't know about him. Yaddah Yaddah. She rebukes and defends him. Apparently, that girl was really mean to him.We fall into silence, and J pops up with a new topic. We don't talk about this for the rest of lunch. We get through the lunch line and she gets up to go get him. I follow. She didn't notice until I complained when I ran into a table. We got him and went back to our table. I sat on the corner, with Gabbs on my right, as always. He sits next to her. And talks. He talks all lunch period. J is talking to the guy she likes, occasionally to me, and Gabbs basically ignores me. I chime in to their conversation every now and then, but was unusually quiet. Gabbs noticed, said something, and N said something to me too. Before this, I hadn't talked much at all. I finished chewing, and replied with a lame excuse. "I'm just hungry" I said. They accepted this, and went back to what they were talking about. I chimed in a bit, and was pulled into the talk at the very end of lunch. Pretty much talked all of 5 minutes. It sucked. I am usually a loud, outgoing person. Always leading conversations, and joking around. I think I got a little jealous when she ignored me. I honestly don't know. During lunch, I got a weird feeling from him. Something dark, something off about him. I don't know what it is.
This afternoon, Gabbs and I both started texting. She thought I was mad at her. I thought she was mad at me. Anyways, I tell her about the weird vibe I got from him. She keeps asking what it is. If there's a reason I don't like him. Why it's only me that has a problem with him. I tell her I'm just concerned. And I am. I always look out for my girls when they have crushes on boys, or some other problem. Even if it's not my problem.
Well now, I'm pretty sure I made her mad. And I'm upset. If I lose a friend over this stupid boy, I don't know what I'll do. She's my best friend. If this doesn't work out, then I don't know what I'll do. Great. Now I'm crying. I HATE crying. Another thing wrong with me, I'm sure. I really hope I'm wrong about him. And that he can turn out to be a really nice guy. But I just don't know. I'm going to talk to my friend who knows him, and see what she says. I know I should stay out of it. It's none of my business. "I can take care of myself. Always have, always will. I like it that way."She says. But, I'm still going to do it. No matter what she says, I'm still going to look out for her. She just won't know it. I just hope I don't lose her.
And if we don't make up or sweep this under the rug tomorrow, Friday, when all of our friends are supposed to get together is going to be awkward. :/ Hopefully, it'll be fine. I told her I was upset when she ignored me. I don't think she paid too much attention to it though. Here's hoping.